So here I am, curled up in a chair at starbucks. I should be doing my liquor order. But I wanted to blog instead. I sabotaged myself this morning. I LOVE the barre class on fridays, but today despite brilliant sunshine, an alarm of “I’m sexy and I know it” and 6 text messages. I put a pillow over my head, and stayed in bed till 11:30.
For those of you that know me, this is CRAZY. I am the worst at sleeping in. I had an anxiety ridden week. I really like a man, who isn’t ready for all this awesome. I am ashamed to admit, I haven’t been taking very good care of myself. I forget that despite how I’m feeling now I will be OK. I blocked out that a few short months ago I spent my free time on my half a couch crying. Now don’t get me wrong, my week was, in comparison to a few months ago, or even a year ago, AMAZING. And it’s another week where my friends and family made me feel so LOVED. SO why? Why am I anxious, not eating, listless? And why did I stay in bed instead of going to a class I LOVE? I guess because I’m dumb.
Week was amazing, tuesday Cherise and Mia came down for a visit. Wednesday I went for a walk and sushi with my girl T. Thursday L&T drove down and took me on a proper date. Showed up with flowers, we had dinner at the wild scallion, easily the best place for dinner in penticton, a lovely walk along the beach, and then ice cream. Funny, because threesomes don’t usually start with dinner, just drinks…lol!!!
I have not been on POF. I guess I have been so consumed by my imagined boy troubles. I look at my match.com matches because they send me an e-mail, but they keep sending me the boy I am all twisted over. I have spent my time reading thru the blog Banks linked in my comments. I am tempted to do something like it. Really tempted. Maybe a date for every pound I’ve lost? And then what kind of timeline should I go for? It might be entertaining. Should it be something I do after I reach my goal weight?
I do have a revamped weight loss goal. I joined “TEAM tightpants” With Micah and Brooke and all the good VI peeps. The goal is to lose 5000 lbs as a group by november. I only have 16lbs left to lose. Wow, only 16 lbs, that is CRAZY. It’s the first time I really though about it. As soon as I figure it out, I’ll add a link.
While I’ve been blogging my phone has been blowing up, text text text, so I’m going to go home and shower, I have a date. Wish me luck!